每天都在做工为了就是存钱,谁叫自己那么没用,考了三次都考不过。 几乎每天都在做工,存钱,花钱,没完没了,到底几时这个循环才会结束?希望自己的生活能有个遥控器,把那些闷的瞬间往前移,谁不希望啊?觉得生活都好不充实,怎么办呢?是时候找点事来做,让自己也有不够时间的时候了。可是我有能做什么?虽然时间好多可是,怎么连睡觉都觉得好累?啊。 或许该去做点激烈运动。 让自己真的能累一累。 暂时先笑一个吧。


My mood been going down down. I felt so hard to pick myself up from so many things. I should be positive as i used to be, but why am i being so negative? 我好希望我能说忘就忘。but i just cant do it. I should keep those things to myself, i just cant hide myself. :( grandma have not been feeling good lately, i really wish i am the one who can bear the pain for her. i been mentally tortured by so much things, what can i do to make myself happier, the best thing right now is for grandma to get well soon. I really wish that she can get well soon.

Sometime people should really keep their words, if not able to do it, do not say it out so loudly. alway thought that life can be simple, say it do it. but no, i can say out loud, but i cant do it. I use to think that i am a strong girl, but i am not. 好多事情我都会留恋,没办法做的像我说的那么潇洒,可望什么都能从来. there is no repeat mode in my life :( if there is a repeat mode, i wont say those things then. 之间也不会搞成这样。 who i am actually? what am i capable of doing? what are my emotions? isnt it hard to be a strong girl? 为什么我还要坚持我的观念?过的好辛苦。I cant seems to let go of anyone, my family, my friends, but holding on to it just felt that i am holding on to the monkey bar, using all my strength to hold on to it, to make me seems like i have a strong character but that is what i wan to potray. 可是我不想到下,不想在她们面前到下. Who can i speak to? the one i can speak to, is no longer there or i do not wish to look for them anymore? i just think that whatever they says, i clearly noe and understand. I seriously needs to learn to let go. i wish there are no more burden to add on to me. i wish i can achieve what i want. i wish we can go back to who we are. i wish for grandma and mum's health to be good. i wish life could be simple. i wish.

SUPER LONG SINCE I BLOG!! AI yo, now got twitter got facebook, people seldom come and read blog de lor. The starting of the year, good or bad? I don noe. My poly life is ending soon, my poly wish gonna end too. Oh! i failed my TP and again, i was hoping to pass and then i can drive for new year. WHO NOES. haix. THINGS WILL GET BETTER, FOR YOU AND FOR ME.

DEAR I MISS YOU!! YOU! YES YOU! 比你想像中还想你。



I am sad, i am disappointed, i am angry. I HAD ALL KIND OF STUPID, NEGATIVE EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW! I AM SUPERRRRRRRRRRRR EMO RIGHT NOW!! I failed my TP. im sad that because i need to start all over again!! Just blame it on myself! i want an end to everything! EVERYTHING! I hate this kind of feeling. I SUPER HATE THIS KIND OF FEELING. When can it come to an end? There are things which i need to let go. I wanna let go of things that has no ending. I WAN TO END IT ! but i cant do it. hao xin ku. Why make me live hard :( i tried my best, you saw it? THAT IS MY BEST. THAT IS ! you refuse to take a look at it. You don even wanna advise on it. There is alway someone else in ur eye. STOP STOP STOP EVERYTHING JUST COME TO AN END IS WHAT I WANT FOR NOW. MY WISH! MY HOPE! Need a break from all this. MY MIND IS BURSTING. just stop DISTURBING ME!!!!!!! :(
sentence of the day: I am just not independent enough.

I think, it has been long long long long long long long long long time since i last blog liao. School started and FYP STARTED TOOOOOOOOOOOO :( Every week i reluctant to face wednesday, it seems more tiring then school. HAHHA. but with my teammates, we gonna face everything postively with fun. :) HAHHA im sooooooooooo sooooo i need of money recently, due to the driving test and many many things which i wanna buy! woooo!

Anyway, i went out with parents yesterday and i got my really advance, christmas present and birthday present! so happy !! heheh GALAXY S. omg something which i wanna long long long time back! Knowing the price, i felt bad but it makes me more determined not to take any allowance from them. :) and and and !! my mum wanna bring me for lasik! OMG!! No matter what tml, after seeing the doctor, lets see what the doctor says.

Today Marion called me.HAHAHAHA Goodness he called me in the morning 8 AM while im still in my dreamland!!! LOl. that is the problem with the time difference!! the moment i saw the number i noe is from him and i noe what is it regarding. but still im still so surprise from his reaction. Never knew that he woul be that happy. Well, after all it worth :) I got the best reaction from you ever=)

Things i wanna get! Polariod camera, new shoe, new bag, new spects. ARH. no money!! jia you jia you jia you! I will get them one fine fine day!For now, i shall just look at the camera first till the day i get it. HEHHEHE.

Sentence of the day: There are endless goals everyday i face, so, be positlve :)

Celebrated my mum's birthday with my sisters, more and more they are like part of my family! Though, i have no siblings, im content with them! I dont treat them as my friend, they are my SISTERS! I wont wan them to go stray neither i will allow people to bully them! :)

School gonna start soonnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!! WANT IT TO END SOON! End of year is really coming soon, REAL SOON! 2010, gonna end le! Why does things goes so fast all of a sudden? Well, i guesss i have to get use to it, i believe as i grew older, pace gonna be faster and faster, aint gonna go slow anymore.

Sentence of the day: THINGS MUST GOES WELL!